Grand Drape - Cerulean Poetry
Today, I want to present you with two poems. Both are based on the same feelings, just a couple of months apart. I wrote Grand Drape this week and Deliverance a couple of months ago.
Today, I want to present you with two poems. Both are based on the same feelings, just a couple of months apart. I wrote Grand Drape this week and Deliverance a couple of months ago. The decision in which order to present them is kind of hard, but I decided that's not what it's about. I'd like you to compare both on their own merit as they document how the same thought can improve.
Grand Drape
To see with my eyes, the piles, piled up behind me, my eyes, blinded by the brightness, drowned to make you see, to make me, blind. To steal my undying soul, with venomous claws, by wilting it with words. My solace thrown, into the farthest corner. Your light is dimming now, the dark is broad and visible, the dawn is here; I hear it humming
Grand Drape Audio Version
Deliverance
Deconsecrated soil is gnawing, Slowly through the rotting flesh, Revealing a seed thats clawing, For relief it has to snatch, From the poisoned tree that dropped it. Through tired hope, it beckons, Reaching out to hands that care, Growing closer to the heavens, Hopeful and yet unaware, How to manage all the healing.
Deliverance Audio Version
Thoughts
When you grow up with a destructive force in your life, the outcome will be that you are a person who is adjusted to this force and not life. The most destructive aspect of this is that you can not see how corrosive the situation was. It’s like asking a fish, “How is the water” - what water? What others consider toxic is just how the world is for you.
The challenge that grows out of this is twofold. Not only will you struggle with the world, but the world will also struggle with you. That is why many people fail to find peace even if they know they are damaged goods. They can only see how they struggle with the environment, but not how it is struggling with them. You need to see both aspects to grow and integrate into the world.
It’s not about resolving into the grey goo of life. It’s about fitting your uniqueness into it. This way, you will find peace.
Deliverance is clearly aggressive and focuses on the struggle of fighting against the force that kept me down. It is full of the misconception that the world can pick me up as I am. The idea that parts of me have to rot away and fall to the waist side is illustrated by a fruit that carries flesh to provide nutrients to the seed, but it is wrong.
Grand Drape is the revelation that my past, even though it was harmful, was just an act, like in a theatre.
It being fake is the core reason why it was damaging in the first place. The bright light on the stage blinds your eyes, so you can not see the audience. In the same way, the acts of a narcissist are made for you to not see the world, the misery and incompetence this person piles up around them and you.
It’s important to understand that seeing the dark, is not something that should bring you down. Seeing the darkness in other people is your compass that allows you to orient yourself.
To say it more plainly: It’s easy to be brought down when you see all the shit you had to go through — and grief is appropriate and required — but you need to understand that seeing the dark, the shit, is the power you need to overcome it.
Godspeed
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Thank you for reading my poetry.
All the best & godspeed!
Both poems are clearly rooted in the original wound and the explanation you offer as Thoughts helps to understand that more. I find this area to have been a ripe one for exploration personally. Keep on keeping on.
The metronome is a very nice addition.